GLASSES ARE ON

Surprise, Surprise! Complaining about something again. SO, these are my glasses. They are black and every time I wear them they make me look tired and everyone just assumes that when I wear them it is because:

1. I'm sick 

or

2. I partied too hard the night before to put contacts in. 

and usually that IS the case, but right now it is because BOTH my contacts ripped. I do have to say they lasted a long time (one a little longer than the other) about 3 months ago one of my contacts ripped and I decided that I was too cheap and I didn't need two I just needed one. For the past few months I have been wearing only one contact. Well the sad, sad day came on Monday when the left contact finally ripped and I was forced into this hell of tired looking eyes.  

But yeah that is all that pretty much has happened since the last post. Nothing too exciting. OH YEAH I did get on the app HotorNot and it is real fun! I don't really talk to people on it but reading their bios is great entertainment!

MONEY WILL BUY YOU HAPPINESS..... sometimes.

SO there is an update with the whole I hate where I work thing. I still talk to everyone who works at the hotel I would like to go back to full time, and the other day their night manager got fired because he refused to take a drug test because he knew he would fail, so they fired him! He has worked there for like SEVEN years and ALL those years he has smoked weed but just now they are getting their shit together and drug testing him. I fell bad for him and I feel bad being excited that he got fired because it is benefiting me right now. BUT I can't really help it. I get to be back at the place I loved working at for a while till they figure things out with the night manager and the front office manager jobs. (which I have applied for both) I really want the front office manager job because it is more money and it is mostly days. But I would take the Night Manager job just because I know I like working there and it is more money than I am being paid now, and right now money I my biggest concern.

I know that when you say you would be happier if you had more money people aways say "money doesn't buy happiness." They say that because they have never had a true struggle. Like I worry EVERYDAY that I won't have enough money for gas to even get to work and sometimes I don't and I have to ask for help and I HATE asking for help.But when people say "Money doesn't buy happiness" there is a couple things you can say to them:
1. Have you ever seen someone sad riding a jet ski? I think NOT
2. Have you ever seen a truly happy person that is $10,000 in debt and just got laid off their job? I think NOT

See what they have to say to those things. I do like to think that Happiness only relies on the person that is trying to be happy and perception is everything. Like if I think I am happy I will be. But I am mostly happy but then when I think about the $600 electric bill I need to pay or the two $400 credit card bills that need to be paid and I am not bringing in enough money to pay those I get really sad and scared. For a long time I would just lay around and do nothing about it. But now I apply for part-time and full time jobs so I can get those paid off, but it was really hard for me to get even to this point with so many interviews and so many no's coming at me it is so disappointing.

I feel like this one had more inspiration in it than I intended..... Sorry. Next time I will be more rude and have no feeling what-so-ever! ;)

And I know that this was kind of all over the place but I don't care I really do write what come to my head the way it comes and don't look back.

Have Fun,
Evelyn

OOOOO JOBS

Right now I am working. I am at a hotel working in the reservation department. This is VERY boring. Ususally I work at the front desk and check people in and out of the hotel. I have worked for this hotel for almost two years now and have really liked it since I stared. But about three months ago I got traded to a different property. I completely loved my old hotel it was small but I was involved in every pice of it I was a supervisor there. I could do sales, accounting, housekeeping, front desk, really anything anyone needed help in. But going to this hotel is very different I got a pay raise to come and only work the front desk 4 days a week and I became very unhappy with it. (I promise there is a point when someone in the story is happy) So today I am working just sitting at this desk taking reservations when I get a call from my best friend/roommate. She got a new job. Which made me excited and she was super happy about it! (see happy) So then I decide that I was going to call the lady I had an interview with about a week ago. I didn't get the job. That job would of been my saving grace from this place. It wasn't so freaking far from where I lived and it paid much more than I am getting here. Most of all. I wouldn't have to work weekends. It really got me down today and I am hoping that something will look up. I know when I tell eveyone I didn't get it they will just say "oh well, you will find something." or " Everything happens for a reason" but that's bullshit I have been struggling for the past few years to find some sort of happiness and I was close at the other hotel but I still was barley being paid enough money to make ends meet. But at least I didn't absolutely HATE going in to work. I remember driving into work thinking 'ya know a lot of people hate their jobs, but I don't' and I felt super lucky for that.

Now if you made it this far into my rambling story boo-hooing about myself and sitting here in self-pitty-- BRAVO!
Also if you have any advice for me I would LOVE to hear it. I'm obviously not doing to well by myself!

:D Have Fun :D

Prepare Yourself

Okay I very much doubt anyone will ever read these but if you just happen to come apon this... I'm sorry. I don't really have any idea what this blog will be about except that it will pretty much be me moaning and bitching about my life and maybe throw a fun story in as well. So you have one of two options-- you can just exit now or you can continue reading on. It is a decision you will have to make and I hope you make the right one..... ;)

PS my first epic story of sorrow mixed with happiness is coming very soon so hold tight and prepare your bodies for something you have probably experienced before (but not from me. Well you kind of experienced stories like it but these are special cause they are coming from me and my terriable writing skills and grammer)

Have Fun :D